i like being frens wit guys.. they're super easy going.. anything u do.. they'l just take it as you. look and see. mb laugh.. then forget.. that's em. that's their good point. and their bad pt.

whereas for girls, they tend to take note of everything. even things like, you dun sit wit them, dun walk wit them, or dun talk to them as much, they'l notice. guys dun do that. this is girls' behaviour. this is their bad point. but also their good pt:) make u feel part of them, make u feel wanted..

rmb not long ago.. that particular incident made me promise myself tt i will never ever make such a rash decision again.. and to keep off all guys. now, they're just like. i duno.. normal ppl to me. no diff. like nowadays i alwaes kena suaning by them. haha. they sae cuz i am the bull's eye. that's why they always "arrow" me. but i was the one who asked them why they kip arrowing me la=p guys are normal frens. NOTHING ELSE.

somehow.. duno when did i start noticing him.. or take note of his presence.. he just stood our from the rest. took quite some time to notice. in fact, very very long. i was busy noticing other stuff instead of him. leme think. i guess it's the double whacko. after a few rounds, he ended up behind me. at that very one pt, it was super nerve racking la!! the newspaper was coming str at me!!

me:ahh!! quick quick!!
him:i cannot sae back tt name!! ar ar, sae which one? which one??
me:er er, anyone anyone!!
him:oh oh uh uh..

LUCKILY HE SHOUTED OUT A NAME JUST IN TIME. haha. i guess it was from then tt i noticed. nothing much happened. cuz i cant break my promise.. but thru a sheer chance, i got to noe him better.. as the bull's eye of everyone, haha, i naturally became his target too:) and with that chance, we got to talk more..

and i began to find out more on my own.. i duno if other gals are lidat.. but for me, im lidat.. i will find out more abt him, get to noe him better, but i kip it to myself. why make it known? it seems pointless to me to deliberately let someone noe tt u are trying to noe him better.. that's me:)

however, after this sheer chance, i was devastated. because we had nothign else in common. and i begin to wonder if he's really what he seems. is he really the witty, funny and lame guy who can talk to everyone? or is he really quiet at heart?

no matter how hard i try to communicate with him, all fails. we just cant click. why? it wasn like this at first. but looking at all the responses he gave me, it's veri disheartening. it's as though he's shouting it out "IM NOT INTERESTED IN TALKING TO YOU!!!" perhaps its time i took the hint. and kept my promise. Lady Cui in Da Chang Jin once said, to keep their family status, she must get rid of this useless thing called feelings. perhaps i shld learn from her.

GUYS. STAY OUT.