and. yupp. saw him today:) it was that feeling of "so near yet so far". he was just right in front of me, yet all i could do was to look down. argh!!! why am i soooo dumb and stupid and and. argh. president of idiot society.

LUCKILY i looked up just in time to see him acknowledge me. shld be la. he nodded at me. an gave a little smile! whee! i smiled back:) haha. and THATS IT. haix. but that just set me smiling like a moron. haha. so i thought. enough of that. off to trng instead!! and stop thinking of him=)

sometimes, i just sooo hate myself!! argh. how i wish when he lie on the floor, the girl he is talking to is me.. but i just have no topics with him in common!! he does suan me.. but hey. who doesnt suan me. even the my little cousin suan me la. so, thats not counted.

i thought that since when he suan me he was quite amusing, funny, and nice, i thought he would be a nice person to talk to.. but when i finally plucked up the courage to tok to him, (thanks to you for giving me ideas, heh) he appeared aloof and unconcerned, simply saying he has nothing common with me. how hurt i was. and coz of tt i snapped at my mum.

could it be that i just noticed him, and din noe him much, and then i put my dreams onto him? hmm. this sounds funny. what i mean is that i thought he is funy, humourous, cuz in my mind,an ideal guy shld be witty. oh yes! ideals! ok. haha. rephrase. "could it be that i just noticed him, and din noe him much, and then i put my ideals onto him?"

yupp. and in real life he isn like this. perhaps im just thinking too much. thinking that he could be that prince, or that devil in my life(-->in a taiwanese drama starring mik he and rainie yang, mike he was the devil that completed rainie yang's life). but i guess he really isn. but i still cant help it if he is so noticable right!!!! haix. someone help me please>.<