i realise that waihing iol dramas only make me feel that everything in my life should end with a fairytale ending.. which apparently will not. cuz it only happens in an idol drama. but deep down, i stil hope that now is just the phase before i find tt perfect person.

but its still kinda stupid la. cuz since almost every other guy only noe how to suan me>.< and i actually dun take much notice of them. but its always him who keeps popping into my head. when i dun see him, my mind wanders. and when i do see him, i try and pretend i dun. arghhh. im really the king of idiots man.

i really cant believe why i would notice a guy who i dun even noe very well so much?? i dun even noe if he's funny or a person who only keeps to himself, or if he's one who can open up to anyone, or simply someone who doesn't care at all. im so full of questions!!!

its just killing me trying to convince myself tt he's not who i imagined, and so. i should just dun care. arghh. its driving me crazy. as of now la. but as soon as skol starts, im gona be normal again=))